Is this a blessing or curse?

I don't know...I would say that you just need to pray about it. God will give you an understanding. He knows what is best for you. Maybe you just have to wait and see what will happen. You are young, so no worries. God will maybe end up blessing you with an amazing guy...You just have to be patient and see what God has planned for you. Keep your faith strong in Him! God Bless you!!!